since I last wrote a blog post. It's been over a year since I thought that I was getting my life back under control. It's been over a year since I thought I'd had an epiphany regarding taking care of my own health so I could better help the people who count upon me to help them with theirs. It's been over a year since I've done more than think about eating right or exercising. It's been over a year since I've given a crap about my own needs.
I normally don't make New Year's Resolutions. I've always thought they were sort of ridiculous.
I've spent the last year without a shred of resolve to do anything other than the absolute necessities. I've spent the last year doing my best to take care of everyone I love except myself.
I'm going to be spending the last day of 2012 at my endocrynologist's office. I was diagnosed with papillary thyroid cancer in October of 2005. I had a total thyroidectomy in December of the same year. It's been a lot longer than ONE year since I've had my own health to use as an excuse not take to care of my own health. (if that makes any sense to anyone at all!)
The last time I went in for a check-up, my doctor told me I HAD to change things or I'd end up on cholesterol lowering medications and blood pressure medications and a whole other slew of medications to chemically manage what I should be dealing with through eating clean and moving my ass. He gave me 6 months. I let them slip through my fingers. Heaven knows what he's going to do to me tomorrow.
So, once again, I find myself STARTING AGAIN. I find myself RESOLVING to change my life for the better. I find myself being reminded (again and again) that I'm no good to anyone if I don't take care of me.
I'm doing one thing differently this time, however.
This time, I'm asking YOU for your help.
Please take this as an open request to call me out on my excuses. Please take this as an open request to keep me accountable. Please keep reminding me that this isn't just about shrinking my ass, although I could use some reminders to keep up with this blog! Please keep reminding me that I KNOW how to do what I need to do...I just have to do it.
And most of all...please join me in my journey. It doesn't matter if you don't have weight to lose. It doesn't matter if you're a marathon runner or if you can't drag yourself off the couch. Each of us can start taking better care of ourselves, physically and emotionally, TODAY and throughout the New Year.